We are about to make a huge decision -- which of two contractors are we going to go with to do our big kitchen/dining room/office/living room remodel! This is a big deal for us. We've never worked with a contractor for such a big project that covers so many things. All our previous jobs were for specific projects like installing wood floor or replacing the windows. This has a bit of everything!!
And so far, the two companies are about equal. They both seem really good. One is a big company with a much more practiced presentation, but the guy seems very good about detailing EVERYTHING that we will be needing to make decisions on. The other one is someone from church. We never really knew him before this, but I knew his wife who also works with him, and his sister used to be Sarah's preschool teacher. And the architect to work with him is from our church too.
Price seems about equal because it all boils down to the decisions we make on what we use. I just don't know what to do! This all seems to come back to the same problem of do you work with people you know or do you avoid that situation like the plague? I pray God makes it clear where He wants us to go. I definitely still feel like the project should go forward, and I have more peace about it today with a little bit of distance from both guys. I just pray God makes it clear and that it is clear to both of us so that we are in agreement and can go forward.
I feel like I have been much more willing to do whatever God would have us to do, for all kinds of things, if He would just show us what that would be. I want to have a willing and listening heart, and part of that goes along with the fear that I am not listening well enough. I always worry that I won't hear what He has for me to do.
I have found that I can face difficult situations with less fear and more trust and peace when it is a bad situation that comes from outside of ourselves. To me, those are out of my control, so I have no choice but to trust in God. But the situations I struggle with the most, such as now with choosing the contractors, is that it is our decisions that will affect what happens after. So if something bad happens, I feel like it is my fault and it is much easier to beat myself up, over and over. But I have to try to remember that God is still in control of everything, and my puny decisions, whether good or bad, can not overthrow God's intentions or plan. That even if something bad happens, God can still bring good out of it.
